I can’t believe it’s September. I can’t believe quite a lot of things really. I go back to work in a few weeks and I’m NOT looking forward to it. I feel like a really bad mother because I’m actually looking forward to some baby free time (really not cut out to be a stay at home mom!) but not looking forward to my job where I feel like a nobody and completely useless. It’s a good job though and I’m lucky to have it so I just gotta grin and bear it. I’m sure I will miss my little rugrat of course (maybe more than I even expect) but today is one of those days when I will be happy that her bedtime has come. See told you – bad mother.
Well enough of that moaning…. in other news I’ve only gone and joined weight watchers!! I’ve been thinking about it for a while but had done nothing about. Then all day yesterday I felt so fat so I just thought screw it, something has to change. I really feel that weight watchers isn’t a long term solution but right now I just need something to get me going and keep me accountable. I’m also off to the gym tonight so fingers crossed the momentum keeps going and I start to see some changes.
So today I’m tracking my food and counting my propoints and to be honest a big part of me HATES it. The same part of me wants to sulk like a bold child that can’t have what she wants or even have a tantrum about it. Of course that because it’s making me face up to what I have been eating and how much. I also can’t just mindlessly eat and forget about it as if it never happened. 
So that’s me right now…. how about you? What are you up to these days?
I’m not looking forward to going back to work either and I don’t have the added stress of having a newborn at home. You are not a bad Mom, just honest about how hard it is to do it all.
Congrats on joining WW. It’s a great program although I’ve never been able to follow it. It does force you to think about making better choices and having someone weigh you in every week is good motivation to stay on track. Good luck!
I’m a bit stressed about going back to the daily grind in a big national law firm but hope I’ll be able to figure out how to do it without losing myself again or stress eating and undoing all the progress I’ve made.
Maybe we can have a little pity party together so we can sulk and throw a tantrum and get it all out of our systems
Enjoy your remaining days of leave and good luck with the transition.
Take care.
Hey MB!! Yep count me in for the pity party. I so gotta get out of bad habit.:|
Thanks for the support. I think you will do really well in the new job. You may have some small slip ups in terms of weight but you have learned so much on your journey I think it will help you cope. Might also be worth looking into some ways to deal with stress? You could approach this challenge like you did the weight loss one!
You are *N!O!T!* a bad mother! (Enough emphasis there?
) I know I’m not a mom, but I can only imagine how… strange it must be to all of your time being yours to caring for a second human being. I don’t think I’m even making sense at this point – I should probably just go to bed… lol
Congrats on doing something different & best of luck to you, love!
Thanks Chibi. I know I’m not really but sometimes I feel truly crap at it! Time to get over myself I guess.