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2013. Wow when did that happen?! Oh ok 25 days ago but you know what I mean right? Time seems to be flying by and I’m not sure how much progress I am making.

In ways I am making loads of progress but the old issues still haunt me. I’m still fat to put it plainly. Fat and pretty unfit. Fatter than I’ve ever been in fact and while I know I am much more than a number on the scale it still bugs the hell out of me. This need for things to change but an inability or unwillingness to actually do anything about it must be the most infuriating thing ever!!!

Therapy is going well. It has made me realise how crazily hard I am on myself in almost every way. It’s also making me accept that change for me needs to be in very small steps or else I get overwhelmed and give up. I want everything to be fixed/better right now. Yesterday in fact. Instead I need to appreciate the teeny, tiny victories I make every day and I do make them but that negative voice inside says “no, not good enough!” It’s time to turn the volume down on that voice but it won’t happen overnight and that’s ok too.

So maybe I’m back blogging. Maybe I’m not. For once I’m making no promises or commitments. Whatever will be will be.


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Weekly weigh-in

It’s my personal weekly weigh-in as opposed to my personal training weigh-in !! This is a bit confusing even for me but I want to keep my weight loss/gain record here based on my own weekly visit to the scales, the same way I started out.

I’m actually a day late with it too! Anyway it seems I am down 2 lbs! I’m delighted with that and I have now hit my lowest weight since starting the blog so yay for me! I have to say that my eating this week has been excellent. My trainer has me doing a detox week. Basically no tea, coffee, alcohol, bread, pasta, rice (or rubbish of course). I think I have had the “cleanest” eating week of my life. The most processed things that I’ve eaten are low fat natural yoghurt, unsweetened peanut butter and low fat cheddar cheese!
I thought I’d have gone insane with cravings by now but for some reason I’m pretty ok. I’m finding it hard to describe how I feel to be honest. I think I’m feeling how a person that doesn’t obsess about food feels. It’s just something to eat when I’m hungry. In a way I guess for me that leaves a void because much of my thinking revolves around food. It’s just plain odd.

My exercise has been great this week too so here’s to keeping up the good work and knocking off those extra pounds. I’m getting very close to having 10lbs lost and I’m looking forward to it very much indeed!

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Re-programming the mind

It’s time to start being more positive whether I feel like it or not. Positivity breeds positive results right?!

I need to focus on my goals, see them clearly in my mind and then make it happen. Yet again I need to stop thinking so much and just start doing. With all that in mind I aim to lose one pound this week. I’m starting small. It all adds up in the end. My major goal is to lose weight before Christmas. Any loss will be positive. So this week it will be one pound.

I will exercise and eat healthily. I will stop worrying about what other people think, I will focus on myself and my needs. In difficult or tempting situations I will do my very best to remind myself of what’s really important to me… the chocolate bar/fries/cake etc or a slimmer, healthier, happier body and mind.
I will do my very best to stop putting myself down. I will do my very best to treat myself as I would treat others, to be kind and patient with myself. I am a good person and I can learn to live in a better way.

I want to do this now and not waste any more of the time I have. There is always hope, another chance, a fresh start. I am an intelligent, strong woman. I just need to believe in myself more and be unafraid of what the future holds.
I CAN do this. I know I can and I will.

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Woo hoo.

2lbs down at my weigh in this week and I’m very happy. I was fairly sure I’d be down. I had a pretty good week in terms of food and exercise. Here’s hoping I can do the same next week! I’m feeling positive about it too 🙂

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I was a few ounces up at my weigh in yesterday. Well close to half a pound but as I haven’t had the best of weeks I’m fairly happy with that. I know I’ve basically stayed the same for the past 3 weeks but looking on the positive side that shows me I can maintain my weight to some degree anyway. So WHEN (yes I said when) I reach my goal weight there is every reason for me to believe I will be able to maintain it.

I’m away over the weekend so there’s no point even trying to kid myself that I’ll be on my best behaviour food wise because I know it won’t happen. Come Monday however I’m am getting back on the wagon big time!!!! I’m going to cut out the bread, potatoes etc fully not just on week days or not at all as it has been this week. I’m also going to work hard on my exercise too. I have two weeks before my hols and would love to get a few more pounds down before I go.

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